Goodbye Love

I've spoken to many rhymes,
Up here in my mind.
I've called them my fights.
My fights for my life.

So I guess your reading this,
I guess that means you found me?
Found me laying in my own blood.
My eyes coldly staring as if they,

Were looking for you.
Hoping maybe you'd see the,
Signs that were staring back at you.
The ones you choose maybe to deny knowing.

My depression has always been there,
It has been looking for someone to break it.
Someone to break this cycle, that keeps happening.
I'm trying to tell you, that you could have broke it.

But only had you choose to see it.
I don't blame you, I blame myself.
I blame myself for not trying harder.
Or caring sooner before it was to late.

I am sitting here with you as you read this.
You don't understand just how stupid I feel,
Your probably cussing me aloud.
I know you are, I know you that well.

Why did you deny the signs you saw?
I know that they were textbook signs.
They were there in front of us.
Staring us down, right at us.

I'm sorry my love.
Sorry for how I hurt you so.
Sorry for my stupidity.
I wish I was there looking,

Looking at you in those brown eyes,
Staring my life away into those eyes.
Living the life we had planned.
I'm sorry that I couldn't fight hard enough.

I could fight my thoughts of death,
The thoughts of killing myself.
I wasn't strong enough.
I tried and I tried.

But they slowly were winning out.
I wish I could have at least said goodbye.
But I guess this here if my goodbye.
I know I'm stupid, I'm stupid for letting the

Thoughts when they game they played.
I wasn't strong like you.
I couldn't win.
I lost my life to depression.

When really I would have rather,
Lost my life, and love,
To you. I'm sorry.
I'm the idiot I am.

Remember love,
I always love you.
Remember I'm always near.
Remember I'm there in your heart.

Goodbye Love.