Laying there, Thinking about the minute thats passed since i came home,
The night was fine to begin with
but im not sure what it felt.
I didn't really feel any connections as i did the several nights before.
The first night , The night where it all began
And those couple first words , Just stuck inside my head.
"I love you"
Im not sure if i can respond to that any longer.
I feel as if my soul is crumbling inside of me, screaming for something new to happen
I burst into tears dreading the next day, knowing im only lying to myself and him
Telling him i love him When i know its not true
Must i go on living this lie or do i refrain
I ask so many questions , questions im not even sure this world can answer for me.
Tell me Is it time to move on, or should i stay intertwined with this lie as if im all true.
I seek the answer, and still will never know.
Author notes
Im not really sure where im trying to go with writing poems, but to me its a self stress reliever. Its kinda how i relieve myself from my pains.
Does it even seem good at all?
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Welcome to AllPoetry
This is quite a lot of emotions for someone of a tender age to be experiencing, though in todays society is normal I guess(?) I think it is good that you can realise the truth or lack thereof behind your emotions towards that person
Poetically I'd recommend being careful with grammar i.e. "Im" --> "I'm", and don't forget capitalizing your Is
I hope you enjoy AllPoetry and continue to share your words with us
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Stay safe
~Manda
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