Small and Hopeless

I truely can't take this
I try to be strong
try to keep myself in control
but I just can't take it anymore.

My heart aches
my eyes are filled with tears
as my emotions overtake me.

I don't see what's going on around me
I just sit and stare as if in a trance
forgetting all that's going on
and I feel alone in a room full of people
as I skrink to the size of nothing.

I feel so small
so hopeless when it comes to you
I'm betaken by every word you speak
filling me with hopes and wonder
that you can't seem to commit to.

I'm left wondering
if you ever speak the truth
I wish I could believe that you do
because I'm stuck on you forever
for your words cut through my heart
like a knife, killing every strand of
love I've had for anyone else.

I sit and wonder if you truely love me too,
and it kills me inside to have to wonder such a thing.