Washing Away Emotions

Hearts are broken
emotions run high
I count my tears
as they stream from my eye
dreams are crushed
hopes are shattered
love is a vest
beaten up and battered
I thought it would hurt
but I feel no pain
I'm worried about her
and how she'll maintain
maintain her sanity
control her tears
tell me how she's feeling
and face her biggest fears
This minor setback
this bruise in my heart
is not the first, it isn't the start
it's happened before
it'll happen again
I'm not worried
for to me that's a sin
to worry about life
when it's not worth living
to worry about love
when it's not worth giving
why don't I worry?
I have to be strong
for those who can't handle
those things on there own
with blood shot eyes
and an unsteady hand
I lye awake
on the beach in the sand
the water rises
the tide is steady
but it takes me away
like a string of spaghetti
floating on top I ask myself this
what am I doing? why am I here?
first I was fine,
now I'm shaking with fear
my head spins with questions
and I can't stop the thinking
I began to panic
then I start sinking
I call out for help
but no one is around
so I slowly sink
then I dramatically drown
I'm missing for days
I can't be found
if only I had spoken up
maybe I wouldn't have drowned
but it's to late now
my heart no longer beats
my body washes up
and of death it reeks
at my funeral
a couple of days after
you see no smiles
you hear no laughter
because Hearts are broken
Emotions run high
everyone is crying
because I had to die.