The whispers of doubt
Have grown to an anxious symphony in my mind
And the voice of my conscious
Is screaming at me that I need to get the hell out
I can't breathe
I can't sleep
I am drowning in darkness at all times
This tiny glimpse of light...
Twinkles tantalizingly before my eyes
So close
But growing ever more distant
I strive for that light
I live for that light
I am caged and that light is my only glimpse of freedom.
The bars of my cage have proven to be made up of air
It is all in my head although....
I can't destroy these bars.
Each is someone I love
Break bars...break hearts
For a freedom I shouldn't have to fight for?
But what of that light?
My future is a distant speck of light
riding on hope and long shot half baked plans
I rely so heavily on that light
He is my light
The only thing that is right
If I must destroy each bar, each tie to my past
Each part of my family
Then I will
I am in love with the light before me
I have given up all I had, and will give up all I have
There's no turning back now
I am past the point of no return.
Author notes
This is a slightly abstract poem about the confined life i'm living and my desperate need to break away from the family that believes me to be 5 instead of fifteen. My only light is my only love, who is my ticket out, my path to a life where i ca be happy and loved.
any advice?
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that is an emotional piece which reminds me of when I was 15, families can be such a drain but in the end they are the one thing that remains constant throughout our lives (even when we are estranged, they are still there somewhere inside us).
I like the way you express your situation, the darkness vs the light and the desperate attempts to move away. very well written.
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