"When the rain starts to fall,
don't you think they still cry?"
Reflections on PTSD in early studies,
now psychology and therapy
leaves me thinking that once
damage is done, the pain never ends.
My friend, newly acquainted,
has been 17 years in the place
I now stand - PTSD and Panic Disorder;
"Don't lose hope," she says...
I've made it thus far with only hope,
but what happened and where
Will always be a part of me,
even if I'm no longer part of them.
Most of that stuff is best left in
the past, we both agree heartily;
but it's still part of her, and of me.
The struggle is long, she says...
"But I no longer allow it to define
who I am"...such words of wisdom.
And to that point I thought I had
reached, but for without my meds
I know I haven't...I sit comfortably
numb, wondering when it will all be
Over and done....
Author notes
Early studies of PTSD began with victims of a small community, ravished by floods and landslides...the survivors would become hysterical and cry just hearing raindrops on the roofs. My friend Donna Stiller was in the same religious congregation as I, and we both left with PTSD and PD due to circumstances... After 5 years, though it's been only 4.5, I thought I'd be healed...but she still suffers 17 years later, even have moved on with her life.
by: o u r g i r l F r i d a y
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When will my life move on?
Comments
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Your emotions show you what you believe. There is a scripture that God will use all things to his glory, and to shape you into what he destines you for. If you can trust him to do that, to redeem your pain; that he is qualifying you for service and that you were never out of his will; you will find personal peace. Think of all the trials of all the heroes of the Bible. Do you think he loves you less? Don't squirm on the potter's wheel. Don't jump out of the refiner's fire.
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awesome!
this is a really captivating write from start to finish. I could feel all of the emotion as I read it through. Thank you for sharing a piece of yourself through your writing. great job!! Keep that ink flowing!!
peace and light,
Kendal
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Very moving
It tells a tragic story, leaving scars which are difficult to heal. The meds will help you part of the way the rest you must do yourself. Keep writing this is good stuff and comes from the heart.
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so sorry for your experience
very well done
God bless you my friend...
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