4 Months To This.

Take me off that shelf.
Knock me down those stairs.
You're done with me.
You're saying goodbye,
for good this time.
The love we had couldn't last,
4 months apart.
I couldn't hold on to your heart.
I wanted to be,
your everything again.
I thought I always was,
It was all pretend.
Once upon a time,
I wished we'd last forever.
Now, I wish, for forever to come.
In the shape of a gun.
To say goodbye,
there's no reason to lie.
I still love you and always will.
I want you more,
I'm ready to kill.
You may have lied,
who will ever know.
One look in your eyes,
I bet it'll show.
You loved me so long,
where'd it all go?
I doubt it disappeared.
You'll love me,
even when you're not here.

When she puts her arms around you,
do you wish it were mine?
When she says "I love you",
do you think of me?
Does it take you a second to respond?
Can you ever forget the times we had?
The beach, the apartment, you and my dad?
We shared so much,
a daughter was conceived.
But you seem to forget,
you were everything to me.
Where'd it all go,
did it really just disappear?
Is it your fear of loving me,
what made you say those things?
When only the day before,
you still wanted me as yours.
I want you too,
I'll be waiting for you.
When you decide,
I'm still the one thing,
you want in your life.

I'll love you forever.
& More each passing day.
Just remember I was the first.
I was the only one,
that ever stood by you,
even after all the hell you put me through.
I STILL love you.



x.
You know who you are.
I don't have to name names.
I still think I'm the Sarah, in your dreams.