these days

these days. i miss them.
the days that were spent searching for the beauty in life.
it was so easy to find, everything was so simple then.
things are so different now.
happiness seems to come in this package that i rely on everyday.
reality seems to stop me around every turn.
nothing lasts forever.
the downs in life are much too hard to overconquer.
sometimes i wonder why i deal with it all.
when nobody listens, when no one understands.
but it's the hope that things will get better in time,
the previous smiles, the moments i've enjoyed,
and that's the only thing that keeps me going nowadays,
it's the hope that those things will return once again,
that i'll finally climb out from this bottomless pit,
i always think i have but it's only temporary,
the hurt's too much to take when i realize i'm still caged,
it's the hope, it's the fear, it's the love for life.
i wouldn't want to end it, i'm always trying to fight.
this is my constant struggle for true happiness,
and i'll never surrender because i know there'll be some good in this.
no matter how hard it is, no matter the tears that i'll shed,
i'll never lose hope that someday, something good will finally come from this.
i only pray some good will come from this.