When one becomes pain

This shield hides my love,
And I watch you.

This pain lingers on,
And I see you.

And life,
Goes rolling by,
Without you.

And every fibre of my being aches,
As I yearn,
But kill
All that resides,
Inside.

And my heart,
While dead must live on,
And this hollow man
This shell
Remains.

And what agony I possess,
And how real the betrayal
And how fake all that I
Became real to.

Oh,
How it reminds me how worthless,
Worth I found untrue.

Oh,
The agony of existence,
Wish I could choke on this pain.

Oh,
Why now,
And me,
Love chained,
Not free.

And no one resides within
Anymore,
Not even a touch
Of humanity
But God only
Glorified.

God and pain in eternal struggle,
Death will break me free.
I cannot reach out,
I consume all,
And spit it where no one will see.
I remain a shell,
No more.