I've been sober seven years from dirty powder, strong and white
and I'm clean from psychotropics (not them all)
There's a couple that I'd never touch, I guess I'm too uptight
but I'll never leave beloved alcohol
Although not a healthy habit and it's shaving off the years
its effective toxins make me feel alright
Be it whiskey, scotch or rum or just a case of shitty beers
If I drink enough, I'll get some sleep tonight
There's no demon on my shoulder, no excuses for my ways
just a love for living fast, I must declare
Wrecked the truck and lost my job while unemployment barely pays
bills are late and rent is due, but I don't care
Feeling empty and detached from social life and everyone
passing time is now what matters most these days
All is well with sloppy buzzes, hefty pot and loads of fun
fucking life through an inebriated haze
Happiness is overshadowed by the hatred that I've got
and decision making skills are greatly poor
Just a glance of this reflection ties my stomach in a knot
So I drink 'til can't see it anymore
Now it's not the most effective way to deaden all your nerves
but its readily available to stash
There are substances to better cope with life's untimely curves
and the only thing that stays my hand is cash
Ramble on, and on, and on about how this or that is fucked
and how life and modern times can suck my dick
Spewing tangent after tangent on a quest to deconstruct
when I listen to myself, it makes me sick
Nothing seems to fill the void for any lengthy sum of time
though a pill, a bowl and bottle will suffice
'Cause it's not about the pain or living well beyond the prime
it's about my uncontrollable device
10-25-09
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