wheres the light

this world were we live
its not a place for love and tears
its only mean for disastrous clips,
if this world falls apart my fears
will only leave slits upon my wists,
if you do not want to see
what horrible things have happened to me,
i beg you not to touch this heart please
the memories to horrifying to bare
yet i bare them upon myself there dark and unfair,
secrets sometimes leave me at a point where i cant stand,
and all my hard work to keep them locked away all falls unplanned,
and I'm dying on the inside bleeding on the out,
there's no one here who really knows what im about
its so hard to keep them satisfied
and so i slit my wrists and leave myself with dark inside,
no one knows and to keep it that way
i wear this mask of happiness and smile my broken hearted smile,
i look at my reflection and reach towards it
but end up falling deeper into the darkness
Ive tried to climb but now i know its where i belong
i wont fight it i cant deny it i stare that monster in the eyes
stab its heart and to my surprise i stabbed myself....
this whole time Ive been falling apart...
i ask you now wheres the light...the darkness lingers without!?