Her soul was crippled
But only her heart felt the measures of what she so dies everyday to have
It's not easy she said, with a faint sadness in her voice
Nor is it an easy fact to face
She wishes for the pain to stop and for her memories to vanish
Though time can only tell where this all will take her
It's not that simple to just stop, she thinks to herself, as she flies into a flashback of her abusive mother,
Yet it drives her insane to wonder what it would of been like if her mother stayed:
But she has a hunch of what would of happened,
She wouldn't dare step into that again but how can she fight against things that would of never been?
Even then, would her mother even give her a second glance...
When the time came for her to say goodbye...
Would a mom of six even understand what she's done to us?
She thinks of what she would say and ponders for a moments time...
"Momma, do you even know how haunted I have become from the life I never had with you?"
Would she even realize it?
Or Would she just turn her back like she's always done?
But here she lies while covering her eyes
Wondering and waiting for it all to come unglued.
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I am really short on words so please believe me when i say this is good


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ty appreciate it
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This made me cry in a sort of detoxifying way.
I can't identify with watching my mother leave, but I can identify with having an abusive mother.
It was always called "discipline", even when it was undeserved or simply disproportionate. Struck with objects, backhanded, shoved, pulled by the hair, thrown into walls... physically it hurt but the pain that truly lingered was the thought that mommy didn't love her, backed up by insults and verbal assaults that followed her for years to come.
When I finally admitted to them how badly I wanted to kill myself, my parents told me that they were bitterly disappointed in me.
I now feel the same way towards them.

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I am speechless, this is a fantastic write. Unbelievable, full of such emotion and detail, and very powerful and creative.
Best part - But here she lies while covering her eyes
Wondering and waiting for it all to come unglued.
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thanks slowlybreathing, appreciate the comment.
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