Afraid

The unknowing of whether you are coming or you are going,
And the feeling of disbelief in oneself.
The roundness of your face has lost its glowing,
People avoiding you and keeping themselves to themselves.

The looks of disgust among those you love,
Constant sniggering and comments bouncing between others.
You just hope there is truely a God above,
All you want is a shoulder to lean on but you don't even have your mothers.

Everything gets worse as each day passes by,
Watching all the time noticing every change.
More often than not you just sit here wishing that you would die,
Many goals you plan in your head but now they are all out of range.

Your fragile bones clonk together everytime you move,
When you walk it appears like you are going to snap in half.
But walking is the only way to yourself that you can prove,
I don't know why you don't just give up you don't even have a laugh.

I can't face to watch you like this anymore,
You are falling apart and deteriorating by the second.
I can't watch you sitting there letting your heart pour,
But you were perfectly fine you reckoned.

You're killing youself
All for who?
It's really no good for your health,
Why can't you forget the past and start again new?