Etchings on the Soul

the smell of you
lingers long past
veiled over naked flesh
inhaling your sorrow
clock ticking down
killing me
with every escapade
past the unending goodbyes
too many to count

faithful companion
always lurking in the shadows
hiding in the crevices
waiting
to scrape your way back into my heart
addiction
at your hands
unyielding

lift me up
to thrash me on the pavement
cracks in the mirror

your touch perched
eyeing the end
invoking the solitude
crippling
laughing
controlling
your grasp locked around my throat
strangling

i pray
for release
one day you'll let me go
or
i'll gain strength

to walk through the fog
over the glass
into the light
alone
i will raise above you

i fail
time and time again
reignited flames
affairs in the nights
i pray
maybe this will be the last goodbye

damn
but i wish
i pray
i wasn't chain to you
didn't want your taste
invoking memories
stench
lust
damn
kept on the edge
creeping back to you
on hands and knees
one last turn around the floor
pressed against me
slipping through my fingers
intangible
i need you

can't quit
vices
healing the etchings of the past
lost hours
ghosts hovering
life line
to sanity

i whisper
goodbye
'n wonder why?