Without NMF

Without NMF I will slowly fade away into the abyess that slowly consumes my soul. He is the last breath. The string it hangs from. He is the only thing left inside. I will fade into the darkness of bad anstead of good and become one of the shadows.
You will not see me fade. It will be a subtle and quick this fall into the downspiral of depression and sorrow. And when I am gone and there's not even the pieces of me that are left now there and I am just a walking courpse; no one will notice, not even you. No one care, not of all them you. I will fade away. And eventually I will be so gone no one will be able to save me. Watch now, watch now and don't notice nathan its okay I know you've better things to do. I will call out and you will not answer I will scream out silent pleas to save me but why would you hear them? You wont have the slightest idea. And yes I love you, so very much but why would you notice? I am the invisable girl. You know the one from your past. The shadow of your today. The blur in your memories of yesterday. The absence in your presence. And when I am really truely gone and not even my walking courpse mist upon this earth to accompany you and there is no more silent screams for her savior because she is no longer in existence and she no longer has a voice from which those sobs of sorrow erupt it will be because no one heard. It will be because no one saw. And because no one cared enough to break down her wall she protected herself with. It will be because she finally gave into the never ending battle and finally let go. It will be because she is diseaste, dead finally. Physically and not just mentally. But of course he'll never know he was the last thing keeping me alive. He'll never know and he wont care because one can not care for what one does not know and he wouldn't know even though this whole time those silent screams have been reaching out to him and tis been infront of his beautiful oceanic eyes this whole time. so close he could smell the blood from her heart and soul that was slowly bleeding out of life.