Ways of them

My heart aching is casual more than anything. ------
I could be the worst thing to be leaving. -------
But it's the boys that kill me inside and out.
Overall this isa killing pain without a doubt.
I fear that sometimes this pain will stick around.
I remember it like just yesterday.
I was in love. with an amazing boy.
Who refuses to believe, I think we were meant to be.
And I just can't keep putting myself through pain.
I just want one and only one love.
For me and they only want to be with me.
They look forward to every second with me.
Its a killer when your convinced you may have this.
And your worst fear happens to break out.
And overall, they didn't mean anything.
You don't have what you thought you had all along.
Its the fear no one likes.
Its the fear that makes people loose hope.
It will kill people and ruin there lives.
Or it will make the best of anything and everything-- if you actually find that one person.
But most of them want to use you.... or be used by you.
Nothing more than a casual encounter to them.
But to you my love.... its a heart being filled with pure gold....
You finding your real being.
Then it disappaears..... they tear it waway from you.
You love, your you.
What a dream killer......
Wait worse.
A heart killer,
Emotion breaker,
Never-ending occurance of that feeling,
that one person.
Killed it.
And this will happen way more than once.
This feeling will creep back over and over again.
And different ones may do it to you.
But I tell you be ware of the boys for they will convince you of what you want....
or they don't have to convince you of anything; you just simply fall in.
........Then you hit the bottom and didn't even realize the pot was empty the whole time.
Make sense?
He didn't mean it, a bunch of simple empty promises. empty words. empty movements.
It gets me everytime.



Poor heart.
I need to take better care of it.