Alone

I know you are there. . . yet you reject my calls. I know you are aware of how broken I am. . . .without you, yet you still leave me to be without your company. So many people come and they go. The new, they eventually fade into the old. But I don't want the new anymore. I just want some one like me. Some one to feel like I do. Some one who knows me better then I know myself. Some one whos real. Who shares the same aspireations and will not laugh or judge when I poor my heart onto the table in words that flow from my mind like a river along a bank. Some one who will be affectionate and proud to have me. some one who will love me true like I do them. I am tired of being the only one like this. I am tired of being alone. I was not alone once. I had you once. and you were perfect, everyhing I need and want. But things have changed. You are there and sometimes we speak. I fall agian harder a little each time into a love so deep and so true I don't know what I am to do anymore but try to reach you and you seem like you feel the same once more. But of course not. And you don't answer my calls and leave me hanging and I know again that the raise of my hopes was just a waste once more like I thought. There was one before you. He was much older and his soul was not nearly as gothic. But that didn't last either. And there was one after you but of course he had her with her high heels and obsession for pink. But I lost the elder. I lost the one whos heart was consumed by another. And I lost you. Of all the things I could ever do. . . . I lost you. And now no one else in this world is like me, is with me, or can relate. All I wanted was you. And once again just like the past and like I knew I'd end up; Now and forever I am . . . .alone.