The Only One

I miss the quiet moments
where I could reflect
and everything made sense in the world...
I miss being clear,
I took  comfort for granted...
I was so wrong to fall,
I was so wrong to listen
to all the voices
that lived only to torment,
and I just gave in...

I miss my old smile once pure,
now a frown is all I wear upside down
pretending everything is okay
when inside
I've lost my identity,
I've lost me...
I am just boken
and in disrepair...
I wish my heart would open
but it hurts so much
to even begin to care...

I miss the confidence I once felt,
I used to hold my head up high,
but now I walk staring at my feet
to scared to stare into all their eyes,
then they would see the truth...
I hide the skin I marred
with cruel curses,
the jagged bars-
all the putdowns-
these filthy scars....

I miss the path I used to travel,
now I find myself
on the narrow road
to self-destruction...
It's a dead end,
there is no where
else to go but down...
I'm falling,
I can't catch me,
I have failed to save me...

I miss my laughter once pure
bubbling from my lips
like sweet sugar,
now all I am is mute
hiding the pain inside,
here is where I suffer,
here is where I'll die...
There is no one here
in whom to confide,
I say I'll try to get better
but once againI lie...


I miss the simplicity of life,
I misplaced my dreams,
made too many mistakes
to now expect
to wipe the slate clean,
I am just a fool,
that's all I've ever been...
I fell of track
and lost myself
somewhere in between...

I miss who I once was,
I miss who I could be....
The sad truth is....
I am the only one
stopping me...