Jester

Paint on this smile
Just to see yours
I've walked this mile
And the lighting obscures
When will my time come
Will it ever be attained?
It's so easy for some
Why is my soul stained?

The futures not what it used to be
And forever never lasts
Love has never been there for me
It's let me down in the past
Feeling like I have been wronged
And misdiagnosed
Of all the things that I have lost
I miss my mind the most

I have bit my tongue
Until it bled
Collapsing my lung
Nothing is said
I can't speak the words
I long to say
The reasons absurd
But in the way

The futures not what it used to be
And forever never lasts
Love has never been there for me
It's let me down in the past
Feeling like I have been wronged
And misdiagnosed
Of all the things that I have lost
I miss my mind the most