Numb

Walking in the infinite abyss, alone once again
She tries to find inner peace
Something that says she is still alive
............nothing
The only emotion she once had has vanished
Scattered to the winds by a fool
But she loved this fool, so hard and true
Her heart is so torn and mangled
She feels nothing, not even sadness
No regret, no pain....nothing
How can you regret something that once made you smile?
He was the love of her life
The only thing in her life that was pure and real
Now it's gone, all gone
Of course it's her fault, it always is
What if she opened her heart more?
What if she had showed more of her love she felt for him?
Would he still be here?
Would she have someone to hold at night?
Would she feel something other then numbness?
Who's fault is it if she decides to sing to the angels?
His for leaving for hers for pushing him to?
To have the answers to all of these questions........
But she will never know
For she is gone, in every sense of the word
Her brain is exhausted, body is scarred and emotions frayed
What's the point of living if she feels nothing?
It's not because of him
He just happens to be the straw that broke the camels back
Life is all about loving and living
How is that possible when you feel nothing?
Nothing matters anymore
Her body is full of scars with broken promises
Failed attempts at eternal happiness
But those scars will return until she feels something inside
If she can't feel emotion then physical pain will do
At least it's feeling something