Torn

I feel like a sheet of paper
People complain to me about my behavior
I can't reply
To say I was wrong
Maybe I over stepped
Just to do what I want

I don't know how to say no
Lost in this deep hole
I'm surrounded by you
My mind has nowher to go

I'm torn into different places
Lost inside empty spaces
Collapsing myself
With other people
Wanting to know thier story
And trying to help them
When I need the help myself
I can't say these word
It's so hard to let go

I'm so torn
Into a million pieces
Scattered all around
Trying to find the right pages
Fixing myself
All alone
I complain about this
Because
Who would I talk to?

I'm a wasteland
Of nothing more
Listing my sorrow
That should've gone
Sometimes I'm trapped
Inside my mind
Waiting to be free
From it sometime

I'm a useless
To those I love
What can I offer?
To those in need
I'm already in waist deep

I still need protection
From myself
Sometimes I want to cry
And be like no one else
Be relatable to other people
I sometimes say why me?
I can't go on
But somehow I do
Why is that?

I still need love
When I offer it or not
I have plenty at home
From what I can tell
Lost inside
This empty shell

I'm torn
Between
Reality
And dreams
Sometimes
Things would happen
And I never thought
It could be me

I sometimes
Don't know myself
I'm lost deep down
Just trying to dig my way out
Sometimes I feel
Like nothing I feel is real
Or I wonder what I feel is rational
For those who depend on me
And I do what I'm told
Just like use to
When I was in school

I see myself
Looking out
I'm never satisfied
For people that I need to please
I can't go to college
Without money
I can't get a job
Without a car
I'm stuck at home
With nothing to do
All but to clean
But I'm still stuck here
Day after day

I'm torn
I'm shattered
I'm lost
I'm scattered
I'm useless
I'm defendless
I'm empty
I'm here
What else can I do?
How
Can I satisfy you?