[ Love is still there...but so far away ]

Love is still there...but so far away
The room is speaking in rhythms
No one is speaking with me
No one to talk to
Even the voices consistantly in my mind have fell silent
Loneliness is closing in on me
The scared insecure feeling of complete aloneness echoes through that empty mind of mine
The love I have is my life...
And that love is being stripped from me from those of a higher power
My friends seem imaginary and unreal
They seem so hollow, and blank
I feel so so alone, so cold, so blank
Not sure what I feel or what I think
My eyes wet themselves
and the tears roll down my cheeks as I think of my hard to see lover
My thoughts and everything seems pointless
Like life is just another pretend game that small children play
None of my habits are helping entertain
The eyes from my hand just stare blankly out at me
The words broken free from my finger tips don't really MEAN anything
The game that normally occupies my mind has failed its purpose
I wish for convorsation, for a place where I belong and have...
Well-
HIM
The man/boy who's supposed to make it all alright,
who's supposed to make my weary heart feel as if it's never been broken
Sleep is so far away
As is the meaning of this random game of life
So now I sit
To pretend everything is how I want it to be