No words from you are expected only your ears.
I know this will be hard for you,but not
as hard as the last twenty one has been for me.
I found the courage to finally say, words
form from the many nights I lay awake.
To afraid to sleep for my blanket no
longer work as my shield.
for that naive nine year old,who didn't
understand that good and bad touches
wasn't just for strangers. I found
words that help me to move on from
kisses and hugs that should have been
supervised. For loving you throughout
the day, yet hating the bug that made
my skin crawl in the night.
For the many years I tried so hard to
forget. But too many nightmares force me
to remember,unwanted touches from
cold hands, silent screams,whisper ssh
and easy darlings through thin unmovable
lips.
Dad,I finally found courage and peace
of mind. I allowed myself to feel safe
an understand the true meaning of
security. You should know that
if I had to do it over again I would.
The pain I could do without
but the courage it took to live
with that pain and become the
woman I am today is worth the repeat.
I know longer see you as a lesser man,
just a weaker man. Whom with all his
imperfections makes him a man none the less.
Dear Dad I'm no longer that scared
little girl, but a woman grown with a
little girl of her own. Who as that woman
can look you in the eyes and say, I love you.
and even harder to say I can't forget but
for me and my family I will forgive you.
( exhale...)
Comments
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Very courageous!


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Wow... Thought I'd click on your piece but what a doozy! Well penned, sis. Write on.
Dez

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wow, this is really something that must have been so healing for you to write. i really love the (exhale...) at the end, it makes it more emotional. this is cohesive and well-written aside from a few minor mistakes where you may have missed or added a word. i get a good feeling from this overall. it's very empowering, and took a lot of courage for you to write. nice job.
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nicely done.


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very heart touching, there always comes a stage in every daughter"s life to move forward in life . i sense a strange undercurrent passing through it but i can not pin it down
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