on my own

I barely smile, I barely laugh, I barely play.
My only thoughts are of how to make it through the day.
Every day is a struggle, everyday I ake another tumble.
You broke my heart once again, you did this from beginning to end.
Now you can't show me your hurt, and you can only tell me lies.
How am I to believe no one else is at your side?

I show no pain, until I can't hold it any longer.
When im alone in the safety of my own room is the only time I truly don't have to hide.
I don't tell anymore lies, I don't have to hold my pain inside.

I don't know how im suppose to go on.
You act as if your fine, while I feel like dying.
But I guess you made an amazing performance and I was just the back up.
Now im left alone to deal with everything on my own.
So much pain, so many games...

How am I suppose to survive like this alone?

The truth is...



I probably won't.