Sometimes We Create Our Own Hell

Bitch leave me the fuck alone,
Im trynna sit here & preach my sins to this Priest. Cuz unlike some ppl , im tryin to make it in this world.
Bt lately lifes been lettin me down, dont try to sit there & tell me whats qood for me. I been to hell & back, Yet im still walkinq on the only tiqht ship left there is.
God said everyone can overcome hatred, bt if thats true then my future ive wasted.

I sit back trya relax, forqet bout my past,
bt thats easier said than done. I know the reqrets, ive seen tha endinq.

Bitchh you think your so hardcore ?, take a ride w| me below tha earth , throuqh this tunnel of hell . People idont know qot it worse off than me, bt take a look in the mirror & tell me what you see . dontt reckanize ya self ?, Well thats okay w| me . juss dontt come beqqinq mercy to me, cuz my only answer will be.....come listen to the thousand stories of my life when i was a kid. 

No ones life is easy, so with that said,
I never really had an excuse for startinq the shit. juss always interested i quess, & the thouqhts inside kept screaminq at me til i finally said yes.

Now im layinq on the floor passed out, bout to die, wonderinq why this shit keeps happenin. Baby i beqq you not to leave, Your love is all i need. i quess thats why i took the whole bottle of Clhorform & ODed. 

So iquess when you live w| me , You live w| my disease .

[verse 1]
& I can sit down & think of a thousand thinqs we use to talk about, one throuqh ten, but then aqain those were days we'd spent doin nothin but talkin stupid shxt. Then we would juss qet qood, and he'd lay it on me aqain. Then he'd always repeat himself makinq it ten times worse. & everytime we end it he'd always start back at the same shxt aqain WTF , you cant juss forqet it ?????

I quess when you live w| me, you live w| my disease.

My life iLive is suchh a dark world, Who in the fck would wanna be in it ????
but you also said you went through it too, so why is it any different w| me ?
OR was that juss a fuckin lie you said, to make me believe it ? but quess what ?! iDont believe it , cuz i already promised to forqet it . So why dont you juss leave it alone ? leave it at that ! dat dat dat lickly split ! blahhhh !


ineva seen sooo many lies before comin outta a quys mouth , bt w| you its easy to predict whats comin next !
Becuz Lovin you was a waste of time . Like iRemember , the nites we sharedd we were juss livin a lie . The whole time we were toqather , ihoped & prayed we'd stay toqatha foreva . Bt foreva never came & now im forced to live w| heartache & reqret . but thinqs are okay now , & if ihad the power to turn back time , iwould & say NO to your ass the first time . Cuz iwill admitt , Relationships Arent as touqh as they're ment . im more stressed out now then iwas before you left .

But iquess when you live w| me , you live w| my disease .


[ verse 2]
& Its like a story im living . A movie w| NO ending . Round & Round, these circles im seeing are clouding my vision somehow. My past is clear, but my future is missing .

Im not Officially dead yet, I woke seated next to my grave & still im up to no good . Watching my life in scenes like a Soap Opera sequence !
Im not ashamed by the turnouts, im more shocked at how they turned out really then anything else . Day by day, Year by year, the results always turns out the same each time, no matter how differently I try to live my life .

But everyone knows,…Lies come back to haunt you, & even in the deepest pit of {my} reality, there’s nothing no one not even the devil can do to stop me .

My dirty little secrets, follow me where ever I go, makin my world seem so cold .  & no one believes my life is a fucked up reality .

but, thts what you qet when you live w| me . Cuz you live w| my disease .
When you live w| me , you live w| my disease .


[verse 3]
I tried to warn you, but i guess you were too fed up w| the lies & fake hopes
I’m overrated, formulaic
I’m self-destructive, insecure, & out of focus
& tht I'll never be good enouqh for anythinq.( Not for nothin) Cuz Life has captured my insanity & discovered, the darker side of me. Falling back to who I use to be . it aint worth the beef & fake people .
But I'll do anythinq to qo back. so iwontt have to forqet & qo ahead & keep remindin me , cuz idontt wanna reqret !


but, iquess thts what you qet, when you live w| me . Cuz you live w| my disease .
When you live w| me , you live w| my disease .
When you live w| me , you live w| my disease .
When you live w| me , you live w| my disease !