I was 13 when I ran away from the group home I lived in.
It was a group home for wards of the state.
An older girl there was running away and I convinced her to take me.
We got to our destination which was the beach.
Bondi Beach was where we wanted to be.
Before I knew it though,
the girl I ran away with had hooked up with some people and moved on.
Meanwhile, I'm 13, cold, scared, and alone.
That wasn't really anything new, that's just life.
[Nathaniel]
He was 17 when he found me crying on the beach one night.
His name was Nathaniel but “Hey call me Nate”.
He always said Nathaniel made him sound too important,
like he was someone special.
He believed he wasn't anyone special.
I, on the other hand, would have to totally disagree.
He was definitely someone special.
“Hey kid why you crying, It's kinda late shouldn't you be getting home”
that was the first thing Nate ever said to me.
I looked up to tell him I had no home, no family and no where to go,
but then,
I saw his eyes.
His eyes were such an amazing blue
and when I looked at him
I had the strangest feeling he already knew.
He stared straight into my soul.
Nate was like no one I've ever met … before or since … and somehow I think I never will meet anyone quite the same.
He lived in an apartment near the beach, he gave me a home, he gave me love and respect.
He taught me much .
I loved him then and will always love him .
He was my first true love, my soul mate.
He died in 1995, I was 15, he was 19.
Many will say we couldn't have known what love was that young.
They'd be wrong.
[Lucas]
Lucas was Nate's flatmate and long time best friend.
He was always full of fun.
Luke could have a room full of people in tears of laughter at any random time.
He too took me in.
Luke's family lived in Victoria, he had a little sister the same age as me and he, in the fashion of friendship, proclaimed me his 'honorary little sis'.
When Nate died our friendship bonded and I went with him to Vic to become an 'honorary family member'.
Lucas died in a car accident in July 1997.
More devastation and another little part of my soul dead.
[Erin]
Now Erin, She was Luke's biological sister.
Living with Luke's family in Victoria bought Erin and I together.
We were the same age and we had much in common.
I loved little Ezza girl, She was my best friend and my Sister.
The differences in our childhood meant I was a lot more
jaded and cynical than Erin,
She was so beautiful and young and innocent
but she had a determination to enjoy life and be happy.
She was in that car with Lucas in July.
Erin also died leaving behind a family torn by pain and tragedy
and taking a part of my heart with her.
[Nicole]
I met Nicole at a train station.
At the time I was 19, She was 15.
It was 2am and I was at the train station meeting a dude to get drugs.
Nicole was laying on the seats on the platform.
Now the only reason to be at this particular place at this hour of the morning is...well, to get drugs,
unless of course you got too intoxicated at the pub up the road to make it home.
The next train doesn't leave until six am and there is nothing else there.
So I asked Nicole what she was doing...
She was waiting for a train because she wanted to run away from home.
Now... I had the chance to help, just as Nate had helped me many years before, I took her home to my apartment and we spent hours talking.
In the time I spent convincing her to not run away and to call her parents,
a friendship was born.
We became the best of friends.
I was an ear for her problems, a shoulder for her tears and a hideaway for her fears.
She returned the favour for many years.
She sat on a beach one night, a beach 10 mins walk from my apartment.
She was so intoxicated that she passed out on that beach
and choked to death on her vomit.
Another taken too young, more devastation left in her wake and another part of me dead.
[The End]
but I know they're all together again
and as they watch over me still here,
together they reunite at the end .
Their endings bought with them a new beginning.
I know they wait for me on the otherside.
When my end comes we will be forever reunited.








i want more dammit.


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