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Fallen Friends [Reunited]

[The Beginning]

I was 13 when I ran away from the group home I lived in.
It was a group home for wards of the state.
An older girl there was running away and I convinced her to take me.
We got to our destination which was the beach.
Bondi Beach was where we wanted to be
.
Before I knew it though,
the girl I ran away with had hooked up with some people and moved on.
Meanwhile, I'm 13, cold, scared, and alone.
That wasn't really anything new, that's just life.


[Nathaniel]

He was 17 when he found me crying on the beach one night.
His name was Nathaniel but “Hey call me Nate”.
He always said Nathaniel made him sound too important,
like he was someone special.
He believed he wasn't anyone special.
I, on the other hand, would have to totally disagree.
He was definitely someone special
“Hey kid why you crying, It's kinda late shouldn't you be getting home”
that was the first thing Nate ever said to me.
I looked up to tell him I had no home, no family and no where to go,
but then,
I saw his eyes.
His eyes were such an amazing blue
and when I looked at him
I had the strangest feeling he already knew.
He stared straight into my soul.

Nate was like no one I've ever met … before or since … and somehow I think I never will meet anyone quite the same.
He lived in an apartment near the beach, he gave me a home, he gave me love and respect.
He taught me much .
I loved him then and will always love him .
He was my first true love, my soul mate.
He died in 1995, I was 15, he was 19.
Many will say we couldn't have known what love was that young.
They'd be wrong.


[Lucas]

Lucas was Nate's flatmate and long time best friend.
He was always full of fun.
Luke could have a room full of people in tears of laughter at any random time.
He too took me in.
Luke's family lived in Victoria, he had a little sister the same age as me and he, in the fashion of friendship, proclaimed me his 'honorary little sis'.
When Nate died our friendship bonded and I went with him to Vic to become an 'honorary family member'.
Lucas died in a car accident in July 1997.
More devastation and another little part of my soul dead
.

[Erin]

Now Erin, She was Luke's biological sister.
Living with Luke's family in Victoria bought Erin and I together.
We were the same age and we had much in common.
I loved little Ezza girl, She was my best friend and my Sister.
The differences in our childhood meant I was a lot more
jaded and cynical than Erin,
She was so beautiful and young and innocent
but she had a determination to enjoy life and be happy.
She was in that car with Lucas in July.
Erin also died leaving behind a family torn by pain and tragedy
and taking a part of my heart with her.


[Nicole]


I met Nicole at a train station.
At the time I was 19, She was 15.
It was 2am and I was at the train station meeting a dude to get drugs.
Nicole was laying on the seats on the platform.
Now the only reason to be at this particular place at this hour of the morning is...well, to get drugs,
unless of course you got too intoxicated at the pub up the road to make it home.
The next train doesn't leave until six am and there is nothing else there.
So I asked Nicole what she was doing...
She was waiting for a train because she wanted to run away from home.
Now... I had the chance to help, just as Nate had helped me many years before, I took her home to my apartment and we spent hours talking.
In the time I spent convincing her to not run away and to call her parents,
a friendship was born.
We became the best of friends
.
I was an ear for her problems, a shoulder for her tears and a hideaway for her fears.
She returned the favour for many years.
She sat on a beach one night, a beach 10 mins walk from my apartment.
She was so intoxicated that she passed out on that beach
and choked to death on her vomit.

Another taken too young, more devastation left in her wake and another part of me dead.

[The End]

They're all gone now
but I know they're all together again
and as they watch over me still here,
together they reunite at the end
.
Their endings bought with them a new beginning.
I know they wait for me on the otherside.

When my end comes we will be forever reunited.

Author notes

I think I've laid my losses bare.
Hope you liked it.

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  • penman gold member
    November 19
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    Excellent

    What a terrific write. And so very deserving of the gold. Congratulations

  • This was remarkable, and definitely worth the shiny it got. Wonderful job with this piece, I loved it.


  • Walking Oxymoron gold member
    November 2

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    Firstly, the title meant I figured I was going to get exactly what I was looking for...so good start!

    I liked how you lay this out...With the headings...
    I liked the conversational tone in which you start the poem... (Although you may need to rethink the phrasing in line 4, it sounds a little off...)
    Sounds like a bad start to life though... to be alone... that must have been really scary.

    Nathaniel... I've read about him before, right??? He sounded pretty special to me! And it's an awesome name.
    You are right when you say that people will speak like young'uns do not now what love is at 15... I personally think that young people feel it harder.
    I'm pleased he helped you find our feet... sounds like he saved your life.

    Oh, and Lucas too...Oh.... I'm feeling for you...
    And then you got close to Erin, only to lose her too...
    That's a lot of loss..

    Nicole... age reversal... This time, you were the older (wiser?) one...
    I liked how you put the random asides in italics... like the part about drugs... almost like you're ashamed, but not quite...
    Ah, ROLE reversal as well as age reversal..
    And then you lose her too! (Although her death is the reason I don't drink... that may make me a pansy...but it scares me... and for you to actually Know someone who has...)
    Jeez... so much of you has been taken, that I wonder if there's anything left...!

    I hope that you continue living,....safe in the knowledge that you know they are waiting...

    That's an incredible amount to deal with in one person. And I wish you continued strength in getting through each day. You are courageous, and amazing.

  • sweetyj84
    October 18

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    Can i just say, speaking as a friend and one who has taken you into my life also as family, I could not be more proud of you then right now. With all the hits that life has brought you to try and knock you down, you have no only proves to everyone that loves you, but most importantly to yourself that nothings going to keep you down, cause you just get right back up everytime. This is one of your most heart felt and important and tressured writes of all, cause its the one thats closes to your heart. And i know at a time like you are in right now, things couldnt seem worse, but you have written this for a reason. This is a piece that has everything, but most of all it has a purpose. To remind you to keep up the fight of life and never ever give up. Finally you have come to realise you are loved and have a place in this world and are here because you were meant to be. And i believe you are here to inspire each and every person you meet in your life, to show us all that no matter how hard life gets, we just have to appreciate the ones that love us and know that they were and are always there for you no matter what. Absolutely loved it. Love you always babe! xoxoxox


    • ToXiC-AnGeL gold member
      October 18
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      Thanks to You, Hannah & Gaz
      The Hope is Alive & Strong
      Love Ya Back Mumsy x0x0x

  • Dwindle
    October 18

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    sorry i could barely get thriugh this entire work.. but i Did and was left in tears.. ond rekindled the flame opf hope inside... at least for the moment

    • ToXiC-AnGeL gold member
      October 18
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      Thank You for reading it all even after finding it difficult!
      I'm glad your hope flame is rekindled
      Without Hope all We Have Left is Death
      Sorry It Made You Cry.

  • My heart goes out to you

    this is so sad. I have never last a friend in death and I know if I did I wouldn't be able to handle it.
    I am really sorry for your losses. You pored you heart and soul into this piece and I enjoyed reading it... But it is so sad to lose someone you care for.
    Beautiful write.

    • ToXiC-AnGeL gold member
      October 18
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      Thank You for Your Comment.
      We think we won't handle it but somehow we just do & hard as it to move ahead sometimes we just have to deal.


  • Andi. gold member
    October 17

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    awww, i want more dammit.
    well done and best of luck sweet poet
    ♥ andi.

    • ToXiC-AnGeL gold member
      October 18
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      LoL More!
      black-phenoqu commented that it could be a short story, If I thought I was good enough I'd try to write their stories, Maybe I'll start with one and see what happens.

      Thanks for Your Comment

  • miamigirlno1 gold member
    October 17

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    Heart wrenching!

    You poured your poor broken heart out in this awesome write.  You did a fantastic job describing each of your angels. You made me cry for you, for our sad mean world and the reminder that when we love,we open up a part of our heart for that person. It often times breaks pieces of our heart that can never mend. My sweet heart life has been too ncruel for you and you're right that they are looking over you and waiting for you. May you find some peace in your life and be proud that you have the strength to take on tomorrow. Blessing to you. lol mia

    • ToXiC-AnGeL gold member
      October 18
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      Thank You for Your Comment.
      I'm glad you feel I described them in a fantastic way.
      There is so much more I could say about them but sometimes it's hard for me to let myself remember them deep enough to find the words. (if that made sense)


  • black-phenoqu
    October 17

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    i think this could be a short story almost

    if this is true, life has certainly not been kind to you. this flows very well, i would love for you to make this into a novel. please, i love all the little stories coming together in you! and how you return the favors given to you. this is very nice, and is worth being on the featured list.


    • ToXiC-AnGeL gold member
      October 17
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      Thank You for Your Comment.
      I would love to write a book
      BUT
      I'm not a writer
      (not a very good one anyway)

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