Scared.

The piece breaking of fabric chills me;
I don't want to blame you for my mistakes & I want you.
Short; it appears to me I finally found it;
the so lost & the vastly regained.
You wrap me into a perfect cocoon of none disgust; & I breathe you.
You breathe me.

These voices; they drown me so deeply into frightening havens
where life seems meaningful yet it lacks of adventure;
Where am I leading? Why am I following?
Hands are slipping cold against baroness stares.

bone white walls insult me; I know you deserve me
just as much as I need you right now;
I don't want to blame you for my mistakes;
I don't want you to see me as I am; not yet.

There's a thirst in me that needs to be quenched;
I'm sorry; Three cheers for revenge.
the aftermath fits me much better;
I'll lay by your side if you end up by mine.

I know what I want, I know what I need & that's you; perfect.

& i recall my own shoes walking down those scary zones
where trees fall from the sky & snow covers my knees.
Where am I? i would ask the wind
to which reply would be a silent wail of someone's pain.

Help. I would ask nicely as survival instinct requires;
Why am I sinking in pools of deep ends?
Unsaid. That's where I wanted to remain.
Unseen. Unheard.Unwanted. Just as before.

You changed me. You breathe me.
I am seen, heard, said and loved.

Why do my knees shake at the thought of us forever?