I'm Always Here

we were both young when I first met you;
shared a class, shared a Crew,
shared seats on the bus to Tennessee...
shared memories.

tried to not make it so obvious,
but I had a feeling that I never felt before.
being around you, I couldn't help but be attracted.
you weren't aware - others saw;
you are my First Crush.

that one year past; the next year, I moved.
so much of a distance, it forced us to lose contact.

then...
this invention called Internet, and online communication -
through various browsers that let you stay in touch with others -
I came across late in my High School career.

I thought of you;
wondering if I were to message you, if you would even remember
who I was, and/or if you wanted to chat..

shockingly, you did.
and you wanted to.

since, what little friendship we had in the past
has grown more each year - and each moment..

[but that's all it was..]

you were with Your girl for about a year
when we started to talk again.
but that didn't stop us..

[1 year into....]

your birthday, your friends hanging with you.
I finally met Your girl.
10 minutes later, I had to go home.
because of her...

since, we were forced to hide our friendship.
with any way that contacts with her.
she would complain about the fact you know me,
but that didnt stop us..

[almost 3 years..]

a Tuesday night, we happen to be online together.
normal chatting.... then you got silent.
randomly.

I knew right then, you were not okay.

(almost 3 years... not anymore)

I went numb, because I was shocked.
I went numb, because I felt you hurting.

I can't help but worry.
I cannot control that I care..

I can't say phrases that will magically heal you.
My actions aren't strong enough to lift you.
But my presence is around enough to comfort you.

(whenever you're ready, I will be here.)

I owe you for all that I had put you through..
being here for you, is all that I know to repay.

(though yall lasted this long, there is always a surprising ending.)