And I closed my eyes.
This couldn't happen
to me, again.
So it happened to someone else.
Who? I dont know.
Maybe just and empty shell,
of a girl who was once me.
But I left
I dont know where I went
beneath the lids
blackness consumed
and it wasnt me.
A part of me died there,
in the darkness,
to save another.
So there would be
at least part of me left.
And I closed my eyes.
I didn't feel.
The tear stained cheeks
no longer mine.
I left them,
along with the bruises
the blood and the fear.
I disappeared,
until it was over,
untill he was gone.
I couldn't let him hurt me again.
But maybe that's what I did,
by drifting into the nothingness,
into the void of darkness behind.
But no,
I was not defeated.
I didnt give up.
Only built a shield
to save what was left of me.
I did the only thing
left in my power to do.
Couldn't save my body
but I could
save my mind.
And I closed my eyes.
This happened before
I knew what would come,
I knew the pain.
So I forced myself away.
No, I could still hear him,
smell the odor of his sweat
feel him, everywhere.
But it wasn't me this time.
I was far away.
And I think part of me stayed there
in the darkness,
the empty corners
of my mind;
away from fear.
And as I closed my eyes
the only thing I feared,
was that when
I closed my eyes and went beyond
that I wouldn't come back
And that empty shell
of a girl,
her broken body,
would lie there unable
to move.
And I lost to the
darkness forever.
Author notes
Too many times before had I fruitlessly fought against it. It wouldn't happen again. So I retreated so far back in my mind that he couldn't hurt me. Well I wish I could say he couldn't, didn't... it still hurt, just differently.
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This was so raw and emotional... It is strange how we retreat into ourselves to stop the pain, sometimes it causes more hurt than ever...
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This was a really nice poem. filled with a powerful emotion some people might not wouldve been able to put into words but you did,you did it wonderfully! I really like the part:
And I closed my eyes.
I didn't feel.
The tear stained cheeks
no longer mine.
KEEP WRITING! -
wonderful k
Kool poem =), this is very emotianal but mysterious at the same time, great use of language and i really think the border you used suits this poem , there were many frases that i liked in this but i wont list them all, wonderful k.
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i really like it! its filled with a lot of power and emotion!!
Great Read -
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You have expressed your thoughts quite well, indeed. I hope you have found shelter from this abuse for THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR ABUSE! You have my empathy. Again, well written. Thanks for sharing. -
amazing so sad...im in tears
your feelings were clearly told...
-hugz- i think u need one teehee =]
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