I, Brianna, Shall Take These Last Breaths

Please rain, don't take this moment to stop
All of those sunny days when I cried you gave me no camouflage
And I sat alone to bleed away with the tears streaming down my arms

I'm sorry mom for blaming you for everything
I made you cry, and all I ever do is stress you out
But now that I'll be gone, that's one less mouth to feed
And one less mouth to hear from
Please don't cry, or at least wait
Just wait
Please
Wait until the next day it rains

I'm sorry dad for loving you more than anything
I tried to impress you and make up for anything
You see, you left mom
And if you left me, I'd be as dead as I will be tomorrow
I just hope you're proud of me
And your not ashamed of the scars I've left for you to cry over
Please don't cry, or at least wait
Just wait
Please
Wait until the next day it rains

I'm sorry my brother and sisters
I'm sorry for always being a know-it-all
I'm sorry for making you feel like nothing
And leaving you with bruises to last even after you and I are gone
Don't let me go, don't forget, because I'll never forget about you
Please don't cry, or at least wait
Just wait
Please
Wait until the next day it rains

I'm sorry my love
I love you with everything in my being and all the strength that I pull together at this last moment
They say that love lasts forever, but forever only lasts when I'm with you
Hoping that you love me too
That you could hold onto me and never let go
To raise your hands over the scabs and bloody messes that I created from guilt
Please don't cry, or at least wait
Just wait
Please
Wait until the next day it rains

I'm sorry my dear friends for putting you through misery
I always laid my burdens on you
And even when you said I gave good advice
I felt you said that because you had to
Even if you do truly love me
Unconditionally
I don't want you to mourn over something that is never coming back
Some one who made you smile and gave meaning to the word
Friend
I sound so arrogant
But I go by what you have given to me from your actions
I hope you will miss me, as I, you
Please don't cry, or at least wait
Just wait
Please
Wait until the next day it rains

I'm sorry Brianna
I'm sorry for calling you unbeautiful
For calling you the worst in the world
Even when you knew it wasn't true
I'm sorry for causing you pain, and making you like it
I'm sorry for making you fall in love over and over again
For making you face the rusting razor once more, or at least as I said
Please don't cry, or at least wait
Just wait
Please
Wait until the next day it rains

But the day has come
Its raining heavily outside
And all that is left for me to do is to let go
Let go of all that binds me to this world
To find out what is beyond the life of me now
Please don't cry, or at least wait
Just wait
Please
Wait until I'm dead and gone
Then the clouds can run from my decaying body resting in the ground
Leave no evidence of this wretch to the world
It's time to say my farewells
And with the rain I cry
I love you everyone
I'm sorry everyone
Please don't cry everyone
When I say goodbye

Goodbye