Little SOLDIER

Hi Mum,

I hope you are well, can't wait to get back home
But it looks like mum I'm going to
be here for some time, But hey don't worry
I'm not on my own.
You don't get much time to sleep around here
there's always something going on. I hope it'll
soon be over, then I can come back home.
The new kid Jones got hit today, but
there's still no news of him, not yet mum anyway.
It's not so bad around here
these friends I've made for life.
There used to be eighteen of us
but now there's only nine.
I hope it'll soon be over mum
Then I can come back home but everyday
more faces arrive, looks like I'll be here for sometime.
We're all so tired mum, I could sleep standing up.
But we've got to keep ours eyes open
We're too scared what'll happen if they ever shut.
Somethings about us now have changed.
We all know inside that our lives will never be the same.
Peter's, he cries everyday.
He prays for forgiveness
so that someone, somewhere will take the pain away.
But hey, thats why we're here right? ...but thats
just the thing mum I ask myself day in
day out, when we hear the cries of men falling
left and right, in the darkness
In the light is why?
Why are we here?
Who is the enemy we're fighting?
Do we only dislike them because its an order?
My friends, my brothers dying protecting boarders.
I know why I signed up mum
because I wanted you to feel proud, but when
I think of what you must be hearing back home
Over me sits this cloud.
How can we end this mum?
What has our world become?
I'm going to stay and fight all the way....but my eyes
can only stare now mum

Numbed by the horrors of day.

But that's what a soldier's being about, to only
scream inside when no one else around, but don't
you worry mum we're all doing fine.
We just all live for the moment that we can leave here in time.
I found myself whistling that song  you used to sing, the one about
how the lord created everything, but surely this world we fight for now
wasn't his doing? ......I don't mean to make you feel upset
But my name could soon be chiselled in a wall marked

- Never Forget.

I think I'm losing it mum, sometimes I get confused.
I stand in the middle of an open field not knowing
what to do...Yesterday I couldn't move.
Not until Harris shoved me and said, Wanna Die Do You! !
Our only luxury is sleep, but how can you close
your eyes to a pain that runs so deep?
When I've had to pick bits of my friends from off me.
But how will people ever understand, if they
haven't seen what we have seen?
40 miles to cover tomorrow, I bet we'll lose a few along the way.

Another day of silent sorrow.

God, I wish this was over so that I can see you mum
But, thats not going to be for a while.
Not until our time is done.
When the battles over and the War's won.
Just remember mum that I love you, you
brought me up to be the very best I could be.
A man with a good heart inside

But this heart now cries, so many mum have died.

And I know I have to be brave and push those feelings aside, but
I'm running out of space in the back of my mind.
We've seen things you wouldn't believe, and this nightmare
is forever with me. Sometimes, it gets so crazy out here
you forget to even breathe, madness further than the eye can see.
But us boys, we stick together.
We've got each-others back, it helps when the world suddenly turns
black under the smoke of enemy attacks, ha-ha.
Anyway, If we get time I'll write again tomorrow, if the war
has seconds I can borrow.
I've got to go now your little soldiers tired

I'll again write soon.

Love you mum


your little soldier

Kyle xxx





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