I am sorry..
I cannot take this pain anymore.
This pain that cuts deeper into me,
-with every word and thought.
How can I continue to look at you, without crying?
Knowing the pain I caused you?
I am sorry i couldn’t be the daughter you wanted.
Or the strong sister you needed.
Every word is dripping with pain.
Can you see it in my eyes?
Do you hear me whispering that i am sorry at night?
With every pain I give you,
I carry it with me.
The marks on my skin,
Are a reminder of everything wrong
Every unspoken dream.
Everything i did not as i should.
So i stand here alone.
Not wanting to hurt you anymore.
Pushing you away.
Trying to protect you,
-from me.
From this pain I cause you.
I am sorry,
But the one candle that was lit for me,
Has been swallowed by the darkness,
The sickness that haunts my mind and presents.
I cannot do this anymore.
I am sorry i cannot be who i should be.
I am sorry i cannot be the daughter you want,
Or the friend to hold you tall.
I am sorry i cannot be the girlfriend you desire/
Or the sister to hold you when you cry.
I am sorry i cannot be strong for you, when you are weak.
I am sorry I can no longer be there for you.
What cha think?
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No matter how much were sorry, and we want to be there for some people,
to livew up to there expectations, we can't. We can only be ourselfs...
I loved this poem and it all seemed to fit,
your extreamly clever with words.
Jezz
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i know..its annoying, but we cannot change..no matter how much we want to. We ar still us.
Thanks for the comment
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Awww this is very emotional and deep and I felt it in my heart. I know exactly how you feel and most of my poems are a lot like this one. You are a strong person for living and being yourself. I hope you find peace and self love. Hugs to you my new friend.
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thanks for the friend lol
I am just glad you got something from it, and can truely understand.
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interesting.
You touch on something i've been thinking about... Like, we're all screwed up in our own special way.... Its not possible to be someone's everything all the time. Try to establish a steady rhythm unless this is a freeverse in which case GOOD JOB!
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Yea its a free verse, cant write much of anything else. Unless it randomly hits me..like in the poem "here is there" lol
but yea..no matter how much you try, you can never be what everyone wants and still be you..
thankyou
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I am so proud of you! you are one courageous person
as i read i felt your pain and suffered through it
because I have been there too!
you are an amazing person I am blessed that you have survived
your past and found happiness you deserve the best in life
Love to you
Rend
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I have sort of gotten past it..its always there in the back of our minds, but it never truely leaves us does it? Happiness? well I can honestly say I have found that, but I think I am loseing him. Slowly at first but I know it is picking up speed..
Thankyou so much for reading. Glad you actually got something out of it too
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extermely nice.luved it.i feel the same sometimes.
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Thanks.
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