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I wont anymore

The pain I bottle up and hide
Tears I lock up behind my eyes

In no one will I confide,
The troubles of my life.

The darkness will be on my side,
The waves will wash over me

Question is can I keep swimming
Can I keep breathing?
Can….will anyone see me?

The trouble that fills my heart
Will make me fall apart

As I start to fade,
Into the darkness of the night
Into the shadows of the day.

I wont complain.

Author notes

apparently i am a burden to many. and i dont listen enough. I listen to every word they say however when a spasm hits it hits hard and in waves. and its hard to help when i am going through that much pain....

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  • raggyann
    October 16
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    your poem does show how you truely feel
    being ripped apaert from the inside
    god bless you
    and please get a friend


  • PrincessOfFire
    October 15

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    You mention you have spasms, have you tried botox? Also has your doctor done a complete metabolic profille to see if your system is out of balance?
    Now for the poem, Very well done. Plainly stated. To the point! Now is it good to behave as this, no. You need a friend, confidaunt, someone to let go of all that you hold within. Don't you know your emotional state can cause your physical body to stress and whatever you have wrong will become worse.
    You need to relieve yourself of the things that bother you. Reduce your stress. I noticed you said you listen, I believe you, but what do you hear. It' like hearing a whisper on the other side of the room thats crowded with people talking. Didn't mean to to loose tract, but this is what your poem brung forth from me.

    Good luck. Rose


  • kareneisenlord gold member
    October 12

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    sometimes we are all too hard on each other... You know ~ I have always felt the same way you do; just bottle up my feelings and keep going. That backfires. I am in a group therapy and that is really helpful. It gives the opportunity to express oneself in a safe and somewhat nonjudgemental environment and to get feedback. Are there any 12 step programs around where you live. There is something for every one and they are free... karen

    p.s. how's the physical therapy going? is it helping the pain/spasms any?


    • Hidded Within
      October 13
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      thank you and no. not that i know of besides i cant get anywhere without having my drivers license first. and as for the PT i havent even gotten into it because i cant afford it...