I could lay for hours wrapped in your arms, completely sure that there was no one else out there that you loved like you loved me. We’d gaze up at eternity; out loud expressing our thoughts of amazement and wonder, and trying to fathom all the deepest thoughts in life. I’d attempt to slap a definition to forever, while you chased the meaning of its counterpart-
love.
Together, we were the perfect fantasy; love forever. And this is the fantasy I thought we were, that we were different and forever would find us just as surely as you love found me. I was broken off into the surreal world of summer, grass clippings, guitar music, and undeniable freedom; I was content to leave my potential behind in favor of this peaceful laziness in forever. Weeks went on and somehow I was completely oblivious to the packing of boxes and the yellowing of leaves, summer had been here, and somehow those endless heat sizzling days were ending:
all too soon.
Maybe I thought it was temporary, the fleeting movements you made to leave me behind, but soon no matter how much I pretended it wasn’t happening, a new time was coming ahead, one you built all your dreams into, filling it up so there wasn’t a sliver of space left for me to breathe in.
When the leaves began to fall off the trees you came to visit me as I lay out, my summer attire ruined by the sweater worn to hide the goose bumps. I think you shook your head at my appearance, but you sat down next to me regardless and tried to get me to talk about the future, when I explained to you that there was no future only now, you sighed and said it was time. I wasn’t sure what you were talking about until you pulled out of my driveway for the last time, leaving me to face the cold harsh winter of realties.
I didn’t have much choice but to get myself together, a feat which took me too long of a time that I care to mention, but when I did, I became stronger than your pleading chocolate eyes, which found me again the next summer, trying hard to convince me that I still needed this(you).
The truth?
I didn’t.
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