You're voice rang out
like a dream catcher
and I'm caught in a net
woven by mysterious love and enigma,
part of me wants to run away
but the magnet of my heart is forcing me to stay.
A clever laugh,
and with that I'm taken away,
"on velvet wings" to a place far beyond,
but where am I?
would you reach out to grab my hand?
and would you guide me through this land?
The message you left
I played over and over again
analyzing every detail
listening to every breath
so why is it that you love me?
after all these months since I set you free?
Your strange magic
has captivated and captured my mind
I feel like I'm spellbound
some mystical voodoo
that leaves me tangled up in you.
Flying through the "woods"
but I see the falling leaves
from the trees of memory
so I perch myself on a branch and look up
and all I see is your face
and this burning feeling I can't erase.
The further I fly
the more I realize
that this is a dangerous mission
I just want to beg you
to come and take it all away
but if you left, I'd beg you to stay.
You're so damn determined
to let me enter your heart
to win my love
but I've heard many promises
and you don't know the cost
of everything that I have lost.
I used to be the one
with my hands clean of this
and you were just a "little naive thing"
so desperately you reached for me
but my hand is reaching out for you
and I'm denying that this is true.
Your "shameless whispers" of love for me
and determination to come here and stay
still don't seem to be enough
to convince my skeptical soul
that this won't just be "a promise broken"
or words of cliche ignorantly spoken.
As I look at you
I see that you may be genuine,
but I can't sign that line
until you're looking into me
you may be "an angel cast aside"
but the only sure emotion I have left, is my pride.
Author notes
A strange twist of events, and it could be said that the character of this poem is very resisting toard recent events and wants so desperately to stop this from happening. Aaah, screw it.
You know who you are as if my quotes haven't made it obvious. Come to Cal U, then we'll talk. Other than that, I can't allow myself to feel this way over someone who I've never formally met. However, I do thank you for giving me motivation when I was feeling high and dry and to a certain extent, there has always been a special place in my heart for you. Maybe you caught me in a desperate situation, then again I said that when you first came into my life.
You are indeed an angelic enigma.
Share with me your interpretations.
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*tears*
Wow.... there aren't many other words I can find.. I knew what you were saying and that I was the one you wrote this to.... You had me crying through the whole thing.. and don't ask why for I cannot even describe of what emotion the came from. Happiness or sorrow.... I will come and see you AS SOON AS I graduate..!!!!..
And another thing... how DID you manage to remember all those names..I change them so often.. it makes me smile..
I'm already learning more about CalU as we speak and I have pretty much made up my mind that I want to be there more than anything... for college and YOU.. We will see eachother soon..
maybe not near as soon as I or you might like but..I will come.
and to answer the question, "would you reach out to grab my hand?
and would you guide me through this land?"... you know I would.. and that I could never deny you or forsake you as we both have been done.. and paid the price so many times before.
Well done my beloved and beautiful poet.
take care,
Sarah
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Well Sarah, I think you should know by now that I'm very thorough, perhaps this is why you respect me so much. I know I'm one of a kind, but I have a heart too. I'm not making any promises, and I can't promise you that my heart might not belong to someone else by the time you get here. My apologies, but in reality, you can be nothing more to me than intangible and abstract. It's hard to commit myself to such a risk, and honestly we never get to talk.
I suppose I'm "satisfied" because I evoked the emotions I wanted you to feel. So now maybe you understand. You got me out of a lot of shit early this year, and I forever appreciate you for that, but I can't throw my heart blindly. Yeah, maybe this might disappoint you, but this is life and even if I'm slightly certain, I can't at any rate waitact without evidence. Words are all I have now, make them something more and we can get closer.
Yeah, you're not in control of your situation, but I can take no prisoners or sympathies. I'm not saying that its off, but I'm not guaranteeing you anything.
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