I fear everything
my future and the rest
Everything I do in life
I always aim for the best
I have everything mapped out
and then it falls in place
but then my map is burnt down
I am forced to start at the beggining of the race
nothing ever goes right
my life is out of control
bought a new car yesterday
and the bill for repair has taken its toll
thought it was okay
but now I don't understand why
the guy sold me a lemon
I feel as if I could end my life
everyone tells me to be patient
but I have been patient for 5 years
I cant work, I cant drive
I can only cry these tears
everyone in my house is stressed
I am lacking ambition
no one will help me succeed in life
I now lack intuition
my future was so close in hand
I nailed into my veins
but now it is back up for grabs
I am slowly going insane
I have given and lost so much
I hate to say I am the only one
because I know I am not and I feel so horrible
but my battle will never be won
I am a fighter always have been
but it cant keep going on like this
I have layed my hands onto the ground
and my towel is in the ditch
caution signs all around me
do not enter person is vile
I will drag you in and depress you too
depression is my only attire
I am only nineteen and I hate the world
because the world has really showed its ass
it stings your nose and bites your toes
and then kills you as a result of the aftermath
I am so sick of it all
I fear I can not go on
I feel like throwing my 85 buick and myself
down a hole back to hell where it came from
this is just my final straw
I lack the will to succeed
fuck my future and everything else
I just dont care any more you see?
my parents dont care about me
they only want my rent
fuck this shit Ill swear to god
I am just about to pitch a tent!
I am only good for the money to them
but they dont see
this is breaking me down
it really fucking hurts me
my life is out of control
when for once I was actually happy
now I am going insane
someone just please fuking slap me !
I am stuck in this hell hole
there is no way out
but to leave this world
I was put in
..I bid you all fare well for now
I am just finally giving in....
Author notes
ok so this is a vent. I was happy for a while...I mean I had not been that happy in years, everything felt as if it would easily fall into place....
and now I bought a car the other day. its an 85 buick. I loved it, it was my first car. My dad test drove it said it was fine. but now it is having a hell of alot of problems that the cost is just adding up to money I don't have.
I am so upset. things r horrible at my house. just I have alot going on right now. Idc if this rhymes, flows or not. its just a vent. probbli horrible but oh well. thanks for reading!
andi
(redhanded)
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