The Monster Inside Of Me

Walking in the rain,
Thinking about what is going wrong in my life,
and why I can't stop it.
Seeing as I only seem to loose those who are closest,
I'm having trouble letting people in.
This monster I have become, stops now.
As in, I'm putting my foot down,
For me, for you, and for the better of everyone else.

I lay in bed, listening to the rain hit my window,
The rain, probably falling down like the tears on your face.
How have I become so harsh?
I was once a sweet and kind young girl,
With no intentions of anything derogatory.
Now, I'm just a mess,
and I don't think I can fix it.
They say you can do anything you set your mind to,
But my mind is set on something totally different.
I'm going to commit myself to being a better person,
This will take time, but I'm doing it for you, I promise.