About You

You could give a fuck about my haunted heart
Why would you, when you needed to protect yourself?
Then again, it was always about you

You said they had all hurt you
They lied, they cheated
I offered you something beautiful and true
You were taken by my virtue

We laughed, we dreamed
You held my hand, you held me
I salivated for your manhood
Our flesh devoured of ourselves so naturally
with such wicked and explicit heat
Every time

I told you
That one day I would be your wife
That one day I would have your child
That you were the one
I told you that I loved you but I had to leave for the night
You shed a tear, you held me tighter, you held me there
You said I needn't go anywhere

You told me
That I was the sweetest woman ever
That you would not break my heart
That no one had ever compared to me
You told me our daughter would be even more beautiful than your niece
I floated upon clouds of trust and surrender
To my heart and soul you were most tender

How could you be real?
But wait...enter the true realm

You said that you were scared
No woman had ever been more into you than I
There was something telling you not to fall
What the fuck was that voice deafening it all?

Suddenly
There were ten things of more importance in your life than me
Do you remember conveying that I was number eleven?
I was inspected under a microscope for any imperfection
My flaws outweighed my virtue
And you decided to inform of everything askew
of some things only human

I changed my lifestyle
And with pride I left the green ghost behind  
but you were annoyed that I did it with you in mind
What gives?

Then
Overnight and with the swift extraction of a switchblade
I represent a stomach regurgitated because I love you
Surely you know I desire a girlfriend not, you ask?
No, actually you told me this was something I knew
Though when we spoke of a future I had not a clue

You attack my character
You insult my intelligence
You spit in my face and swear that it's rain
while you make your retreat to find yourself again

Why the hell would I ever hurt you when all I wanted was to be your life's anchor
and forever remain by your side?
Only a god-damned fool would travel to hell and back for the prize
just to squander everything sought and gained
Don't you know?
Why the fuck would I hurt you?
Why the fuck do I love you in vain?

Now you're gone
while I sit with haunting memories and this broken heart alone
And like a fool I hope
And like a fool I still fucking wait

Why?
Because it has always been, and will always be
about you