The Loss

I dont need an excuse to do it
Im already over the edge
I need a reason to step back
Onto solid ground

Im not afraid to jump
Because Ive already fallen
Ive already hit bottom
And I dont want to get up

Im not scared of death
Because I know that something awaits me
And I believe that it is better
Than what this world has to offer me

I need a reason to trudge on
Day after day
Tolerating this life

Suicide isnt an issue
Its living thats my problem
I know I want to die
But I have little will to live

Sometimes all it takes is one tear from your eyes
And I think
I guess I can give it one more day

But eventually you expect it
This downfall inside of me
And the tears stop flowing
And the concern is locked away

The severity of my pain depletes
And soon I am abandoned
And no on realizes that
I live moment to moment
And I crash
As soon as that support slips away

But who can tolerate this depression
If I cant?
Who can make me better
When I dont care if I am?
Who wants to feel that pain
When I dont?

Knowing they tried to save me
And knowing that they failed

So its best to mourn me now
Distance your emotions
Numb you mind
Sooth your heart
As if I were lying on the stretcher of death

So at least
They can say that the loss of me
Was expected.