The Fear of Love and Happiness

Im too afraid to give my heart
Or from my childish world depart
You cannot see whats really me
I live inside a fantasy

I do love you
But cant you see?
Im a coward
Thats whats really me

I cant let go
I cannot leave
The illusion only I can see

Youre much too real
I cant get close
Im afraid that you may break the seal

The seal that stands
Between me and land
And keeps my heart as rough as sand

It keeps me from the entire world
From all the lies and pain
It blocks out all my hopes and dreams,
But keeps my blood from pouring like rain

I will never be happy
Im much too scared
To wish for you to always be there

Im so, so sorry
Im too afraid to trust
To take a chance and receive your love

Im wrapped inside my own cocoon
Away from the world
On top of the moon!

Im ruining myself,
But cant you see?
Im far too scarred
To let you
Love me.