No One Cried For Me

Today
I lost my girlfriend
And no one
Cried
For me

Her name was Ana
Ana had brown hair
Hair that extended past her shoulders
Shoulders that attached to arms that used to
Hold me

She was smart
Smart about her company
Smart about who she trusted
Smart about who she told
Smart about who she was

She didn’t deserve this
This was unfair
Unfair that they took her from me
Me, the only one who was always there for her
Unconditionally

Not for who everyone else wanted her to be
Not for the Christian front she played to keep her mother happy
Not for the closet she was pushed into at school
Not for the heterosexual bachelorette her family saw her as
Not for the dyke he saw her as

I loved her for her eyes
Eyes that shimmered and shined
Shined when she was smiling
Smiling when we were together
Together we were happy

We kissed
Kissed in public
Publicly a man could see
See that we were gay
Gay to him was wrong

To him being gay was punishable by death
To him his actions were justified
To him I was okay to beat us senseless
To him it was okay to kick us until she bled
To him we deserved what we got

I saw blood
Blood pouring from her face
Her face was all I could see
See the pain in her once shining eyes
Eyes that would never again smile at me

I saw her live
I saw her die
I saw her cry when life was hard
I saw her laugh when times were fine
I saw her

They saw what they wanted her to be
Be a creation of their hopes and dreams
Dreams that she could be straight
Straight meaning she would give a man her love

Her love that she had given to me
Her school apologized for the loss of my friend
Her priest said, “now god can show her the way”
Her siblings asked how we could love?
Her family didn’t acknowledge that I had lost as well
Her mother blamed me for “corrupting her daughter”

I saw her die
Die and she took my soul with her
Her soul still remains in my heart
Heartache overpowers me
I can’t believe she’s gone

Today I lost my girlfriend and no one understood
Today I lost my girlfriend and I was not treated as her love
Today I lost my girlfriend and I got blamed
Today I lost my girlfriend because I’m not straight

Today
I lost my girlfriend
And no one
Cried
For me…