Love Poem to Myself

I have been a neglectful lover
I refrain from saying
I Love You every day/month/year
Because I am afraid to love you
More than you deserve

But,
I have to learn to overcome
My fear of myself
So-
I love you

And before you tell me im a two timing lair and to
Shut the fuck up because
I dont want to hear me
HEAR ME OUT

I love you because
You/I/Me/We
Are worthy of love

Because I/We/Me/Us
Do not need or require
Love from anyone but us

So when people come into your world
Bringing less than happiness and respect
You tell them to step aside
Because you dont need them baby,
You got me

And I will always be there for you
Theres no shaking me because
Whenever you call me, Ill be there
In every reflection you see
In every step you take, in every move you make
Ill be waiting for you
At the crossroads, so you dont get lonely
And at the low roads
And the high roads
And the times when theres no road at all

You just find me and
My intuition will see us through
And we will prevail through the storms
And always see a brighter day

I love you
Because you are Beautiful

I never tell you that enough
In fact, I tell you the opposite way too much
Shame on me

You are beautiful, and I dont care
What your past says
I am not my hair,
I am not this skin
We are so much more
And I am proud of you

So, you take your queen Latifah figure
And your Lil Kim swagger
And forget how the world judges you
Because,
I will always love you
And baby, I am all that matters

I love you
And I dont care about those who left you in the past
Who said that you/me/we/us
Werent good enough for their love
You are the only woman for me

Its their loss and
Im going to take all that loving I would have give to them
And give it to you
Because youre
My Girl

Im not perfect so
I cant say that Ill always do right by you
Or that I will always treat you right
And give you the self respect you deserve
But I promise to always be there for you

And so,
I am saying I Love You
Im putting it out there
And hoping that youll say
I love you too
In return.

Because there is nothing I would do for us
What I wont do, do for love
Because I know that there
Aint no woman like the one I got
So I dont want to loose myself

And if I neglect to say
I love you/me/we/us
For another
Minute, hour, day, week, month, year

Then
Remember who you are
Remember where youve been
Know where youre going
And know that Ive been there through it all

I know you
I understand you
I am still here and always will be

I like you
I admire you
I want to be more like you

I think you are beautiful, sexy, talented, amazing and
Strong willed (not stubborn)

I know your faults, your weaknesses
Your strengths and your triumphs

And your experiences have taught me life lessons
The people you have loved have
Uplifted me and torn me down

The choices you have made have
Bettered me and destroyed me

And in the past
Yes,
I have abused you
I have underestimated you
I have neglected you
And I have abandoned you

I acknowledge that
I admit that I have done wrong by you

But I have realized now that
I would DIE without you

No one in the world matters if
I aint got you

So
Today-I love you
Tomorrow-I love you
Next week, month, year
I will strive to love you harder until
Loving you is easy
And comes naturally

And Im telling myself to
Unbreak my heart
And lift myself up off the floor and
Shake off the dust of my past
And burn all of the excuses and lies
I have created to
Limit myself

Blow away the ashes of
My depression until the
Old me's dead and gone
Dead and gone

I will cut these chains
Destroy these shackles
Ignore the voice of
Self hatred and
Internalized racism
Homophobia and anti feminism
Instilled into me

Because no longer do they matter
Because I have found you
And you have found me
And together we can make it
Through anything

I love me
And just because my dad could never be a father;
Doesnt make me any less of a daughter
Just because I love a female;
Doesnt make me less of a wife
Just because I am a size 18 and proud;
Doesnt make me any less of a woman
Just because my origin comes from every continent on the map;
Doesnt make me any less of a person
And just because you dont love me;
doesnt mean I dont deserve to be loved

And so
Tell us that
I love me
I love who we
Have the potential to be

Forget the world
Fuck the haters
Im all
I need
To get by

I dont need you to love me
I can do that by myself
I love you
Love,
        Me