Last Words

I hurt everyone I meet
I have destroyed the person I love
I have become a parasite to life
A nuisance to goodness

I have pushed you to the point
Where you would not have me
On the earth

I do not deserve to be here
Nor do I wish to be
Everything is pain
I cannot bear it

Every sunny day in my life
Is followed by a hurricane
Every smile
Being chased by tears

My despair has overcome
My will to live
My love for you
Is my only comfort

I cannot practice it in life
But I will forever honor it
In death

I am us
And we have died
And so I shall leave
As you said
Goodbye

We are done
Therefore I die
Because all I ever was
Was us

And Oh, what a great thing to be
Indeed, I have aspired
Even higher
In this life then I could have dreamed

To have known a love greater than myself
To of had the honor of loving
And being loved
By someone so wonderful

Shame on me
For the tears I caused
For the anger I provoked
And for the stress I enhanced

A thousand deaths
A million punishments
Await me
And I take them on eagerly

For I know
Its what I deserve
For ever hurting you

My earthly heart is broken
My soul is decaying
But soon I will be with the divine
In bliss and peace

And if the divines mercy is great
I will return to you on earth
And watch over you
Until you are old and gray
And I will watch over your children
And ensure your happiness
And safety

And when you die
I shall be there
And will kiss your lips
And forehead

Because even in death
You will be Oh, so beautiful
As you have always been in life
And I will walk you through the veil
And we shall be
Free