t.o.t.d.d

hate is when i know you so well
that your character becomes a villain---
you can’t live without complexity
an ending for  you is apocalyptic
and it needs a thick, striking epilogue
that reiterates and proves the past…
if you end up sitting alone
you must sit dramatically
and believe that they’re watching you
and believe your silent conversation
really means something more than muttered words
from an melodramatic script…
since you make excuses
you aren’t lying
as long as you bring the tampered evidence
and you show everyone the proof that you
created…
if you can balance your diseased happiness
then you can balance the fear
for your mother and father…
(they are only making sure you fit the requirements for heaven)
don’t let anyone bring the future to the table
only talk about the past on your table of judgments
it will keep you safe from
simplicity…
if you really can’t live with humanity
and the powers you already possess
d e a t h is your only option
perhaps you should stop wishing…
everything with you must. be. distinct.
and put together  in a puzzle
or a game(mindgamesareyourfavorite)
or something you can d  e  c  o  d  e
and make sure it comes out as pathetic as you can
since it won’t make sense anyway
since it’s worthless…
so throw a flower, if you’re mad.
it will really hit them hard
for all the menacing things they’ve done to you
(they’re hiding what they
really think
about you
and your work
so your feelings won’t get hurt.
but your emotions are no concern of theirs
anymore)
did you think you were mighty?
did you think you were godly?
to say they cannot tell of your truth
when you told of their lies?
when they read you,
they know you aren’t really
saving all the saints!