Continued

Now you claim that you want a friendship
But how could we ever be friends
You lost yourself
When you went to her
You lowered yourself
Through your actions
You mutilated my definition of you
When you took my heart
And destroyed it
And I have learned to never
Give away your heart twice
Because it will just get stepped on
Twice as hard

So how can I be friends with you?
I dont know you
The you I knew
Would never have done the things you have done

And now
I dont know what you are capable of
How can I trust you
When I gave you the
Breath of my trust
And you suffocated it
How can I have a friendship with a stranger?

Again and again
You prove to me that
All you can do
Is hurt me

You told me that
Im the 80 to her 20
No
The 85 to her
15
and yet
you went back to her
you put her on pause
and I let you back into my heart
I welcomed you with open arms
Just like I said I would
And you used me like a spa retreat
Basking in the amazing goodness
That is my love for you
And when you were rested
And rejuvenated
From the emotional abuse and
Physical neglect
That she inflicts upon you
You returned to her

And said fuck you to my trust
Fuck you to my hope for us
Fuck you to my affection
And fuck you to me
And then you cry
And say
You want me to be there
Of coarse you do

Im amazing
You want my friendship
Because you want everything
But you cant have everything
And anything you want
You are so spoiled
Like a brat
And I hate you
Because you are not cassie
You are not as long as you are
withher
Her girlfriend
Because as long as u are with her
You are continuing to be the person
I never thought you were

not my friend
Not my acquaintance
Not my lover
Not my anything

You chose her over me once
And I forgave you
And I gave you a clean slate
And you wrecked it
And that is your fault
And so now
You are nothing
In my life

And you dont deserve to have a place in my life
Because you dont respect it
And until you respect it
You will never have a spot in my heart
And so I am taking this door
This door
Marked you and me
And not only is it closed
But its locked
It is chopped down
And it is burned

I am done with your abuse,
I am done with your lies
I have enough emotional and physical scars from your love
And I dont want anymore

Love should uplift me
Love should free me
And love will
My love for myself
Because theres no such thing as loving you
There is only abuse

You are beginning to discust me
Because when i look at you
All i see is her
Shes all over you
Like filth

TWICE now
You have returned to me
When you werent getting what you wanted from her
And each time you returned to her

So this time im going to walk away
And let you be deprived
Let you miss me
Let you be lonely
And hurt
And I wont feel bad
Because that is what you did to me
My turn
Right?
Fuck You