do you love me

you spoke words
words that broke me open
like a chasm
revealing the depths of my soul

like cursed lovers that have turned
and gone away
you thought
thought you could burn me with your scorn

but now
now i understand
it was not scorn you wanted to give

it was pain

you wanted to punish me
for not loving you
but you didn't know

you didn't know that
my heart was already yours
so now as i die
listen

listen to my blood
it speaks

it said thus:

my love
was always
yours to have
but what you wanted
i wanted to give
but could not
you wanted
an outward expression
not for me but for you
for you
to love yourself
and when i wouldn't be your excuse
you killed me with your silence
so as i lay in blood
blood that's ours
mine and yours
tell me
do you
love
me
because you love me
or
do you love me
because
you haven't found the courage
to
love
yourself