Just Waste Away

I feel like dying
and giving up on the world
I'm not cut out for reality
It's survival of the fittest
and I am far from fit
Denial is my best friend
Running from the truth that hurts
Always running
I'm so tired I just need a rest
But in this grown up world there is no such thing
Life is a cruel thing
I'm so frail and fragile
psychically and mentally
I have quite the temper
quite the mouth too
But inside I'm dying
falling apart
I feel like dying
It's the only way out
My life is falling to pieces around me
I can't seem to keep myself together
The pieces seem heavier than ever before
as I slowly waste away with my health
I often find myself wondering
Is it my fault? Am I doing it to myself?
Or is there something wrong with me?
I'll never really know
Not while the thoughts linger
The thoughts that it'd be better to die
Don't bother fixing me
Just waste away into nothing