A touch on my insecurities

I don't know what it is about love
But it makes me happy
To have you but at the same time
I can't help but feel insecure
Because of my insecurities
I hold on that much tighter to you

The thought of you makes my heart ache
But it doesn't hurt
Rather it brings a smile to my face
And tears to my eyes late at night
No not tears of pain
Just a longing to hold you near

A longing for the hand I've never held
The lips I've never felt
It's no wonder sometimes
I let my insecurities get the best of me
But because of it I am able
To cherish and love you all the stronger

Sometimes it's the push I need
To tell you what I truly feel
To let my guard down and let you see
Deep down inside of me
Where all the love and longing
I never speak of lay waiting

The fear of losing you one of these days
Is what drives me to be all that you need me to be
The fear of never hearing your voice
Or listen to you sing
Is what drives me to show you
The words I do not speak

I don't think I'll ever stop being insecure
But if you'll stay with me
I'll have the confidence I need
To share with you
This one life I have to live
and this one heart I have to give.