How could it be, that it never was?

I lost what I never really had.
The child in my womb dissapeared.
Never exsisted?
then how could i possibly see her life entwined with mine?
how could i see her, just a lump on my belly,
how could i hear her cry my name, with nightmares on her mind?
how could i feel her in my arms, a hug before the first day of school?
how could i taste her tears, after her first big fight with a guy?
how could i smell her, the perfume she wore on her wedding day?

how could it be, that it never was?

I loved her, and now shes gone...never was....will she ever be?

there are no words to describe the loss, of that little girl i never had...

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I had a pregnancy 'scare' i wanted it tho. i was sure it was a little girl. it was my chance to make this world worth it. she would have made it worth it for me. i would have gotten so much better. she made me so happy. and now i know it was not to be. you might understand. you might not. and i wont go into more detail. but thats where my mind was.