You let me fall

Let me fall out of this darkness. Im screaming for you.
I liked you because you were different. And that you didn’t personally know what I once had to go through.
But I guess you felt obligated, to see what it was like.
That these drugs turn into a nightmare, of not wondering how, but when you will die.

So now I still like you. It may even be love. But I cant get back into that cycle. I’m not giving up.
For once everyone’s proud of me. Ive been doing so good.
You even taught me how to let my guard down. And I fell for you.

And that’s not something that comes easily. Ive been hurt way too many times.
But now it’s moral dilemma. Should I choose the good, or the easy side.
I’m torn in both directions. I just wish you would call.
But your out partying again. Its like I don’t even know you at all.

So I’m having second thoughts; about what we are or what we’ll ever be.
Deep down I know, that soon  it’s the end for you and me.